hey guys,
my names joe and im 17. Ive been dating the same girl since sixth grade (over five and a half years) and it was easily the best relationship imaginable. She was gorgeous and such a great person. Well, about five months ago Amie (my gf) was in a car crash with a drunk driver and she was takein to the hospital. Later that night she died in my arms. Ever since then ive been a complete mess and i seriously just dont know how to deal with it. It seemed like it was getting better for the past few weeks but now it seems worse than ever. I'm having reprecussions again and nightmares, reliving that night, again. I loved her more than my own life and it just killed me to sit there and watch her slowly die. Its been getting increasingly harder to hold on, i thought it would get better with time but it hasnt.......I just wondered if anyone has any advise on how i should deal with this....any help would be greatly appreciated (and dont say shrink, that aint an option)......Thanx :(